Anonymous Ramblings

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The Great Indian On-Site Dream

I know him, and so do you. We all know him, and some of us are him.

He grew up living the IIT dream. He knew he could make it. They all did.
Out of college, he got placed a big – big, in terms of the labour force, and not the impact - Indian IT company which does back-office work for the West. They call it consulting.
His mother is happy. She can tell her friends her son got placed in *******. She is content with life, now that her son has good prospects in the Marriage Market.

His house is a mess right now. Beer bottles adorn every flat surface in the apartment; the fridge stinks of stale food, which he isn’t planning to eat anytime soon, but doesn’t have the heart to throw it; water bottles, remote controls, mobiles are covered in a layer of oil. Someone will clean it up. There are so many people living in the apartment. On weekends, you can find him watching cricket in his torn...

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Numbness of the Soul

The very nature of this disease prevents me from noticing its onset. The strong whiff of a woman’s perfume when you are looking the other way, the odour of your sweat - it is my olfactory senses that give me clues, telling me I lived in another world once, with feelings. I felt more often then. Happiness wasn’t eating a cheese-stuffed pizza; it was a feeling; a stream of energy inside me.

Feelings. Anger, happiness, joy, and sorrow - their current form is a cheap replica of their true self, a poor attempt at fooling me, my olfactory senses tell me. Things used to be better. I would not have believed them, but while they whisper in my ears, I can remember feelings; their memories are stronger than their present form. Who knew one could remember feelings.

Back then, world was a big and scary place, full of wonders and unseen places. Having someone in the room made it less scary. I...

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